At the age of 20, a character resembling a rabbit and an alien began to appear in my diary, where I scribbled about my struggles and wanderings. Since then, this alien has become the protagonist of my illustrated diary, and I have come to be called the "Krazyrabbit" by those around me. I didn't mind the name.I started drawing the Krazyrabbit as a substitute for the anxiety and loneliness I felt in the world, and I believed it brought me some healing. With a conviction in art therapy, I enrolled in a graduate program in art therapy to gain a deeper understanding of the various symbols appearing in my drawings.Although I started studying art therapy with great curiosity, it was also a painful process of dissecting myself. It felt like lying on a surgical table, looking up and struggling to see my own split-open belly.
After overcoming the cold surgical table and being able to sort out who I am, how to relate to others, and my fragmented emotions and thoughts, I started writing my thesis and realized my own naivety. People suffer because they do things that do not match their existence. The discomfort and awkwardness of floating in a void, not knowing who I am or where I am in the midst of dissatisfaction and anxiety, can become a driving force in art. But in reality, it can also cause great mental exhaustion. Through studying art therapy, I tried to overcome this intellectually.
I gradually realized that the appearance of the krazyrabbits represented various egos within me, and that I was relieving myself by drawing them in my efforts to unify them. In moments of anxiety and loneliness, I may have let these avatars dance on the stage on my behalf, while I hid behind the stage curtain, feeling relieved.
As I wondered whether I could only draw because of my anxiety or whether I was drawing to overcome my anxiety, I came across the quote by French writer Andre Malraux: "Neurosis creates art and art cures neurosis." I sometimes sketch before drawing, but most of the time I just draw freely without planning, so I don't know what the final product will look like until it's finished. Sometimes I draw in a complex way, like carving with a pen, but I don't mind the unfinished or rough parts, as it shows the progress of my emotional and artistic journey.
I empty my mind through the complex drawings. When I continue to draw repetitive dots and lines, I forget about other things.The keywords of my work are integration of fragmented self, archetype, anxiety, emptiness, healing, and forgetting through play.Continuously drawing while emptying my mind into a peaceful state is the recent focus of my work.Human beings are a universe in themselves. Through forgetting, we constantly empty that infinite universe.We must empty it in order for new things to come in. Drawing is an act of emptying through the practice of forgetting for me.